All For Show: A Fake Boyfriend Gay Romance by Rachel Kane

Author:Rachel Kane [Kane, Rachel]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Published: 2017-06-25T04:00:00+00:00

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Nat: Let’s Ask All The Questions Now

There are some people who can have sex and simply enjoy it, who can take it for what it is. Then there are the people who have to think about it and ask what it means. You can probably guess which kind of person I am.

As much as I wanted to lie there with Owen, basking in our post-coital glow, and maybe going again once my cock was ready, I could feel my mind scrambling to put some distance between us so I could figure out what had just happened. I thought about it all the way to the restaurant.

I didn’t come to any grand conclusions, but Owen definitely noticed that I was quiet. “What’s up?” he asked.

“Nothing, I’m fine,” I said.

He laughed. “Nobody busts out the I’m fine that quickly if they’re actually fine.”

“Oh, I’m just so stupid, okay? We had a great time--are having a great time--and I’m fucking it up by asking myself all these questions.”

“I assume you don’t mean questions about what you’ll be ordering tonight.”

“Of course not. I’m thinking about all the implications of what we did. All the possible meanings of it.”

He paused pretty suddenly, and I stopped walking too. “Nat, promise me something, okay?”

“What?”

“We fucked. And it was a lot of fun, and I’m glad we did it. But for the purposes of this dinner, can we not look too deeply into it? If you overthink it, you’re going to drain all the fun out of it.”

“But I’m really, really good at overthinking.”

“Yeah, so I gathered.” He took my hand and gave it a little squeeze. “For the next couple of hours, let’s forget that we had sex. To the extent possible. Let’s not examine it, let’s not question it. It happened. Now let something else happen.”

“You’re advising me to adopt a course of strict superficiality.”

“Take it from an expert. Let’s just go to dinner and have fun. What happened back there doesn’t have to mean anything, but if it did, you won’t be able to figure it out by ignoring me all night while you think about it.”

I squeezed his hand back. “Deal.”

Although I wished he weren’t so hot. It was going to be hard not to think about it for a couple of hours.

Especially hard, considering the way he shut the conversation down. I understood why he did it--at least, I was pretty sure I understood. But part of me was saying It’s because he doesn’t really like you, and now you’ve ruined everything by pushing it somewhere he didn’t want it to go.

I kept trying to tell myself that couldn’t possibly be true because we’d just shared this intense experience...but maybe guys who do random hook-ups always feel them that intensely? Maybe that’s what I was missing out on, being so shy? Maybe he felt like this every time he slept with a guy.

If only Joan hadn’t made us kiss for the camera earlier! If only there weren’t all this expectation! When he held

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